You’ve made great progress. Honestly, you know that all of this could have been achieved without using PEDs, but you chose to speed up the process. Well, that’s your choice, and no one has the right to judge you for it; you’re an adult.
But still, let me give you some advice – if you’ve gone to the dark side, don’t use such high dosages, it’s too much. 125-180 mg of testosterone and around 20 mg of oxandrolone/ostarine/RAD140 or S23 would suit you.
Although, honestly, if I were you, I would do PCT and maintain that form naturally. You can improve your physique for at least a few more years without using steroids.